
Nosferatu (2024) - Dir. Robert Eggers
Tuesday, December 31st, 2024 - Reading Cinemas in San Diego
I have never gone to a movie on New Year's Eve night but it was a spontaneous choice and I knew Sarah would love this movie. One of her favorite movies of all time being The Witch also directed by Robert Eggers. I'm not a horror fan and I went into this movie blind, no trailers. Once I saw the preview for it back in 2023 and saw the "Nosferatu" title with that cast it was a must-see. And holy moly god almighty this movie was insanely captivating with very dark but metaphorical concepts of love, darkness, lust, sacrifice, power, shame, and both mortality and immortality. Now it is a fairytale but fairytales are made to instill real dangers in more exaggerated forms (blood-sucking, life-taking, immortal vampiric beings) to make them more memorable and thought-provoking. It was a bit hard for me as I don't take jump scares easy (working on it) but I love Eggers's work and the effort he puts into getting everything about his story as correct as possible. From clothing to hair, makeup, and the making of whole cities instead of CGI solving every problem. I'm not a fan of exorcisms as portrayed but one must be knowledgeable in all areas. Get past your fear of not being able to understand. Even if I don't think exorcisms and the like themselves actually exist in our world, I believe the metaphors they use is something to think about. As darkness in a variety of avenues very much does exist in this world and many you will never witness or experience in your life. I love the idea of vampires as a mythical creature as well as the story of Nosferatu (archaic Romanian word synonymous with "vampire") this dormant, dark sorcerer shadow of a being with unwavering hunger and desire. An immortal kind of being with major hermit tendencies. "Living" hundreds of years and seeing humanity play out for so long would make one tend to keep to themselves. But this Count Orlok takes the feelings of satiation, power, yearning, and love so violently serious. It's clear he will do whatever it takes as he did not choose to be awoken at all. As known in the story of Nosferatu and mentioned in the film, to become this being (vampire) you are said to have died and then sold your soul to the devil to come back. Ellen Hutter (Lily-Rose Depp) in the beginning, years before the main storyline of the film, is portrayed as a lonely trauma-struck woman looking for any entity, any comfort of companionship not knowing the power she possesses. She called out to any celestial sphere and Orlok felt drawn to her as she awoke him. He answered this summoning with "You are not for humankind" "You are not for the living" Count Orlok recognized Ellen's darkness, her power that she saw as shame. He then asked her "Shall you be with me every eternal" "Do you swear it". Ellen answered "Yes". He seemed to hunger for power above all else and to see this woman call to him with the enchanting powers she possessed without selling her soul for immortality as he had. She became his affliction, she possessed a power he wished to have, to feed on. Ellen not knowing the power she possessed and being in a vulnerable state, Orlok used that to his advantage.
Darkness continued to follow Ellen wherever she went, she wanted a stop to it. Years later after waking Orlok as the main storyline presents itself, she marries a man named Thomas (Nicholas Hoult) who treats her well and makes her feel very happy, comfortable, and safe. Thinking that her helpless call to darkness in which she did not intend could manifest its way outside of her mind. At a young age, Ellen had a sort of darkness inside her and no one tried to help her or understand her. Ellen knew when exactly her mother would pass which did happen and her father never tried to comfort her or acknowledge her issues, he was frightened by her. He did what lots of men tend to do, especially in this film specifically when they don't understand a woman's emotions or feelings whether otherworldly or not. They ignore her, sedate her, anything to make her "normal" while this darkness is shoved deeper and deeper destroying her from the inside. Thomas, after her father, even does this when she tells him of a disturbing dream of dead people at their wedding and how she was the happiest she's ever been in that dark dream moment. Seemed Ellen was allowing that darkness through to be talked about, to be communicated in a safe space, to which Thomas shut down stopping her in the middle of the story and telling her to never speak of these things aloud and then leaving for Count Orloks castle. The friends of Thomas that Ellen stays with while Thomas was away is Anna and her husband Friedrich. Anna listens to Ellen trying to understand and connect while Friedrich sees her as annoying, or troubled. The result of this though exaggerated in this form, is what Nosferatu resembled. The consequence of repression of shame, alienation, and isolation for something that is a part of you can come out in dangerous forms. Like being easily manipulated, gravitating to any sort of comfort for this darkness. Which in this case is a far more dangerous darkness taking advantage of desperation. The path to Orloks castle with a driverless carriage black as the night with stallions- like ones headless horsemen would ride- getting louder and louder as they gallop towards Ellens's husband Thomas in a soundless dark forest. The door to the carriage opening on its own, revealing a deep darkness inside- as if walking into the end. According to vampire lore, they still follow strict religious rules around who they can, in this case, "claim." When one as Ellen has been married in the church, Count Orlok can not pursue Ellen, as their previous sworn partnership entailed when Ellen was lonely and desperate until this marriage is annulled. Orlok being ahead of the curve knowing the greed of men, especially real estate businessmen, offered plenty of gold to Knock who was Thomas' boss. Knock then sent Thomas to Count Orloks castle where he intended to keep him after he was made to sign a paper pretty much signing Ellen away. Like playing with his food in his castle, he fed on him when he wasn't fully conscious, scaring him with wolves, trying to lure his mind away from Ellen. Thus leaving her helpless to Orloks pursuit of claiming the one who awoke him. Finally seeing Count Orlok was fantastic, dark warm room but you can feel the chilling presence. Hearing his thick ancient Romanian voice for the first time, his stature, and hand movements. How sharply he turned at the smell and sight of a slight finger cut. Striking fear with every word, step, and breath even when it wavered and stuttered like a dying old man clinging to life. The narcissistic impositions from his own demonic seal and crafted coffin, to listening to no directions but his own.
I loved the duality of spiritual and physical "plague" coming to the small town in Germany where the film took place. The boat that arrived from Transylvania was infested with rats that carried the physical "plague" along with the stowaway Count Orlok in his coffin below deck. The spiritual darkness being Count Orloks presence iterated by the massive shadow in the shape of a long-nailed black hand covering the town in darkness. Rarely do you see a villain and never have I seen a vampire portrayed precisely like this. It was exhilarating, and tantalizing, you just can't look away and you want to know more about him. No rules apply to him when abiding by feelings of lust and being bound to Ellen. Ellen being a telepathic sorceress herself was able to communicate and interact with Orlok which he did not expect but made him more drawn to her. Even through her past call of desperation for comfort in which Orlok answered and terrible dreams with Orlok, she equivocally says no to his advances as he planned to come to her in Germany. Orlok being the monster he is does not take this lightly. She even tried to achieve this separation from him as she knew she and Orlok were connected. She did this by having intercourse with her husband Thomas knowing Orlok could see it. To show her his frustration on this matter knowing now he could not use her desperation and loneliness anymore. He came to the small German town anyway showing his brute strength and fear he upholds and kills people close to Ellen and Thomas. The sexual tension, the impulsivity, the ever-coming shadow of your deepest darkness that follows you until you give in to leaves you frozen. Dafoe's character (Von Franz) plays the professor who was cast aside for his studies and beliefs in these dark arts. Knowledge is power, something we lack these days, knowledge of EVERYTHING no matter how you view the subject at hand, is important. Without Von Franz's (Dafoe) old student (Seivers) openness to come to him for something he did not believe or understand but understood this "darkness" could still exist and saved people. Von Franz was not restrained by modern 1800s conception of science and medicine. Which in simple ways means he listened to all sides, did not blindly follow a treatment that did not work, and curiosity. I know shocker. Dafoe's character said, "We must know evil to be able to destroy it, we must discover it within ourselves. And when we have, we must crucify the evil within us, or there is no salvation". It was up to Ellen to destroy this evil she did not want inside her but was ever so presence throughout her life. She should not be shamed for something she did not ask for but ask for help to achieve her goal of purging it. In a way, I'm glad they made this movie so scary, so horrifying in parts. It makes you remember maybe your own deepest darkness isn't so scary to face and conquer. That accepting the deep flaws and thoughts you have can be claimed by you and forged anew. The final scene, the alluring nature of it, was my favorite. You finally see the sun shining through the window for the first time in the film. Ellen having so much darkness follow her in her life from a power she did not ask for. A shame she felt as women today are made to feel abhorrently more judged from a darkness men experience too. We don't see any shame in what Orlok is doing as we just say "in his nature" compared to how Ellen is portrayed. Even though Ellen is clearly fighting against it as Orlok is exhorting this deep darkness forcing Ellen to continue to feel it until Orloks appetite is satisfied. Von Franz (Dafoe) inspires courage in Ellen to recognize she has all the power to end this but it costs her life. All her lifelong pain aside, she was finally able to make a decision for good bringing light both figuratively and literally as the sun beamed through the window. She pulls Orlok closer as he can't stop drinking her blood for this is what he yearned for the entire film. Orlok burning to death from his own darkness he could not resist his unwillingness to stop even if it meant his life. Also, something I noticed was Ellen dressed and presented as a "doll" like while Orlok was pretty much a skull with a mustache. Makes sense why Eggers made this final scene his interpretation of the well-known Renaissance painting "Death and the Maiden". I debated on the acting of Depp and Hoult in the beginning but it improved immensely throughout the film. Aaron Taylor Johnson and his character's true love for his wife was unyielding and deeply blinding but beautiful. The Shakespearian nature I'm always a sucker for. Beautifully, deeply, disturbingly written. The visuals grab you by the throat leaving you speechless with your eyes glued to the screen. So much to take from a story like this, many interpretations.
9.4/10 🧛🩸⚰️



Gladiator II (2024) - Dir. Ridley Scott
Friday, November 29th, 2024 - Edwards Cinemas in Bakersfield
Yes, it's been 24 years since Gladiator 1 came out, but don't get it twisted this is still a continuation. The Roman Empire had the same cycle of greed, violence, backstabbing, corruption, and power-grabbing for decades. Along with fluid sexuality. The story of these 2 brothers as emperors is a whole mess of a tale itself, historically their father was the first Roman emperor from Africa. I won't get into the depiction they go with instead of being historically accurate not that I actually care because it is a fictional movie but that is the side people always take when a colored person plays a character that was first introduced as a white person even though again it does not matter. Still, I want to address the double standard. Either way, just watch the movie. There were all kinds of people in Rome during their reign from all countries that were in close proximity to Italy. Historically, the twin emperor's father was from Africa, and their mom was from Syria..... any waysssss moving on. Ridley doesn't give a rats ass about the depiction as he said himself about this historically accurate "issue". He makes good movies and I think this is another solid one. The emperor seemed like a very fun role. Troubled kids that hated each other their whole lives but their fathers wanted them to rule together when he died. That did not work out... in the 2000 Gladiator movie Joaquin Phoenix did a great job of balancing being feared but also showing that same fear in him. These brothers didn't show fear to me they just seemed sexually energized, drugged out all the time, yelling, and frantically making decisions soooo probably pretty accurate but not as much of a presence and performance on screen as Joaquin in this emperor role. I still liked both their performances and liked the historically accurate makeup, clothing, and sexual representation. I loved his little pet monkey and just the back and forth the brothers had on screen, it flowed naturally. I want the movie to FEEL like I'm in Rome at that time holding nothing back. In a lot of ways, this movie achieved that. And in a lot of ways...It did not. You probably know where I'm going with this. No one minds a bit of CGI its what movies use now to bring that extra attention in this heavy ADD world we now live in. People need to be grabbed a little extra these days for a movie to succeed. The Baboons were a cool touch. I love baboons and they are some of the scariest animals to exist. Imagine being as agile as a monkey with the bite force of a polar bear that's literally a Baboon. So that was awesome but I think the human in chains would've gotten destroyed by a drugged-up baboon I don't see a human winning that battle. The big Rhino with the saddle worked I don't know why people had a problem with it. It was a nice little boss battle and makes more sense than him riding let's say a tiger or some other very heavily CGI animal. Now the sharks ohhhhh the sharks, first, the water battle....dope, awesome, that happened back then it did seem like the boats were too big for the Collesium but the sharks took that thought away quickly. In Roman history of the time, sharks were not mentioned in many art or writings. A lot of people it seemed from what I studied didn't even know they existed....but then I think what could they have actually switched it out for...nothing realistic comes to mind. Maybe it's partly us, the viewer's fault but I still blame the higher-ups that care about how much money they get out of this movie. So guess what they say let's throw sharks in the trailer so the other people who haven't seen the first one and just think it'll be a cool movie will still go see it since they already know they are getting the money of the people who have seen the first movie.
Now for the connections with the first movie. The lead had the perfect voice to match but did not completely copy Maximus. Same demeanor, and it worked very well. I know they never explicitly showed Lucius to be Maximus' child, and I've seen people say he was "cheating" or it would be a problem if he was the father. I don't think so. Maximus' first family was butchered, he fought for them and he would never forget them but does that mean he can never move on? As Lucius' mother did with the General (Pedro Pascal)? The love never fades but hate does as Lucius' showed with his mercy for General (Pedro Pascal). He grew up fighting so well being fueled by his hate for Rome, then using the rage of losing his wife, then losing his mother (which he clearly did not care as much about since he barely knew her), to then finding out he was the key to a new and improved Rome to push him to fight for a great purpose instead of fighting with only hate and anger. This key character growth throughout the movie I think made his story more powerful and actually believable. I enjoyed the different interpretations of life and death through different characters who clearly are from different cultures, have different religious beliefs, and have different thoughts on what life and death means. Doctor Ravi and Lucius were talking about what the dream Lucius had where he crossed a river meant to each of their respectable beliefs. Lucius believed it to be death waiting for him. To Ravi, it meant forgiveness and rebirth. To be cast into a new part of life. It's these little things that humanize every character and I truly think that is important to recognize we are all just people. No matter the belief system, the birth of origin, or status. Doctor Ravi's character was my personal favorite he seemed very knowledgeable but calm. It was great to see the other "dream" connection of the wheat fields from the 1st movie where Maximus would see his family waiting for him/running to him while he ran his fingers through the fields waiting for death to take him back to them. Paul Mescal's character having the same call back to connect him with his father was a very nice touch.
This was a hero's prophecy, a takeback journey, and I feel every mentor/guide had an important role in the development of Lucius' character. All had quality advice and knowledge, all different but really helped his character grow. His wife, his chief in the beginning, some of the Gladiators in the pits with him, Denzel's character Macrinus, Ravi the Doctor, Pedro Pascal's character General Acacius, and even his Mother all had different guidance and impact. Sadly it seemed Lucilla's (his mother's) character was just there to remind him and us of Maximus, of his past, and of what his future should be. Didn't seem she was much more than that, a martyr for Lucius. Pascal's character I felt didn't have much to him very one-dimensional but not in a bad way at all he played it well. I think that what they wrote for that character, he loved Lucilla but he clearly chose his path of destruction as Romes's war general, and I think he knew how it would end. Denzel's character of Macrinus was the surprise of the movie for me. I watched no trailers as usual because they spoil everything to get you in the seat. I was VERY happily surprised with his role. Was it training day Rome style, in a lot of way...yes but how can you hate that? Training Day Academy award-winning Denzel in fancy Roman cloth and matching jewelry being a manipulative, articulate, sneaky badass and acting very well in that role is amazing to watch. His costume design and jewelry choices were definitely my favorite. Based on the color scheme of the cloth his clothes were made in he would wear all silver jewelry or all gold. It just looked incredible to me. The predictable downfall of course but a very captivating character to watch on screen. Another favorite of mine was the dialogue and vocabulary used, the art of poetry in which Lucius spoke throughout the film was a beautiful touch of the time period. Made for perfect breaks between the gruesome fighting, and the political conversations of the time. It was a Roman Epic and I believe it lived up to that. A lot more color in this sequel, awesome battle scenes, gruesome but very nicely depicted. There weren't many surprises, the plot lines seem to slowly show themselves instead of any massive shock value/twist moments in my opinion. Either way, I still enjoyed myself. Am I going to sit here and say this has shot up my list and really moved me...no. Is it better than the first one no but I do not think they went into this movie trying to surpass or exceed the 1st. However, I am curious why they waited 30 years to make it though.
7.3/10 🏛️🗡️



Perfect Days (2023) - Dir. Wim Wenders
10/18/2024 - At Captain's House Dog Sitting
Simple. Prideful. Sad. Happy. Enlightening. Tender. Healing. These are the words that came to my mind minutes after finishing this film. Have you ever thought of Sisyphus as being happy? Even the most mundane chore that doesn't change in its basic form is a sense of freedom when you control it. The moment the rock rolls back down the hill Sisyphus is unencumbered and free as he walks back down taking in the world around him appreciating what he can control taking pride and if I dare say finding some sort of happiness. Am I comparing this movie's main character to Sisyphus not quite but I'm more comparing it to finding happiness in anything. Happiness can come from the simplest things with little needing to be spoken or said. The lack of dialogue the main character partakes in was soothing to me. Such peacefulness the less you have to worry about. But worry is a human condition we put onto ourselves from overstimulation. These days have now turned into a massive ADD problem with people needing so much going on at once to get something done and feel accomplished. The main character takes pride in his routine and having such a routine has so many benefits. His sense of peace but also listening and awareness skills were very satisfying to watch.
Do shadows get darker when they overlap? Questions we don't know are what life is all about just make sure you never stop asking them. Even if you'll never know the answer. This movie made me feel very stoic and made me feel like you can always achieve peace in your life even in this judgmental, fast-paced, money-first world we live in. I loved the hobbies and habits he had just like the routine of a simple man but he isn't simple. He is just as important as anyone else. Something about physical media and physical jobs that can really create a sense of being present and not so programmed. Forces you to make more intentful choices. But so many people don't care enough so they just want things chosen for them (i.e. Spotify on shuffle, or scrolling on the search page of social media). Even buying a piece of media isn't really heard of now. It feels less yours to me. Like a stranger in your home who you know but don't truly know. You know each other are there and acknowledge that but you never sit down to truly take in and understand each other. I feel people misinterpret comfortability with building/community. There is no shame in a simple life of listening and learning and creating routine and foundation. With so much human to human life comparisons something like this is needed in my opinion. We don't find like-minded individuals or intellectual conversation, no one wants to put in that kind of work they just give up quickly when it isn't working. We complain about why we are so disconnected on a human level. We don't have conversations anymore, we are even at the point where having a text conversation is too scary and we let AI or an App choose a topic or response for us. It is incredibly unhealthy the people we compare ourselves to that we will never meet and the expectations those set for people both young and old. That's why this movie felt like such a sweet breath of fresh air.
This movie really helped me put things like this in perspective and the first step is being aware. Everything about this guy's life was comforting even the family issues but everything that needed to be talked out was talked out. And when no words needed to be spoken he did not speak. The appreciation for nature the simple glass of water at the food/bar spot every time, the bike rides, the quick snap of a picture of his favorite tree while smiling. Beautiful. I am SOOOOOOOO glad I found and watched this movie. Watched it at the same time with my mother even though we were in different cities. Life is in the eyes of the beholder. It's a new dawn, its a new day, its a new life......and im feeellinnggg goooooddd. But there is still no such thing as perfect soooooo.
9.5/10 😀🍃




Joker: Folie a Deux - Dir. Todd Phillips
11/18/2024
I totally understand where people are coming from regarding this movie. A lot of people going to these movies are comic fans and the Joker is one of if not the most notorious villain in any superhero world. People expect A LOT. Now we saw the first movie so we knew this isn't any normal superhero DC movie. I truly believe it was chastised too hard. I just think there was a lot more to this that people overlooked because on the surface it was silly, weird, bad singing, and sloppy. But I believe that was the intent. This movie was Arthur Fleck, it was Joker. It was a play-by-play inside the mind of a psychotic, traumatized, mentally ill, poverty-stricken man who copes with music, dancing, violence, and comedy. It starts off so subtle he's just Arthur Fleck living his life out in the Asylum Prison and the movie ramps up as he gains courage from his followers and then from Gaga's character which I want to dive into a tad bit more later. He cares a lot about what people think of him as Arthur Fleck and even as Joker but Joker is more charismatic and boisterous so it seems easier to hide. He wants people to like him. In his head, he is the main character. We saw multiple times where he broke out in singing and some showed the actual reality, him just singing to people in a room in his terrible singing voice, but then some had the extra spotlight, or the "talk show" he and Lee Quinzel (Gaga) were "on", or them escaping the Asylum dancing and singing. Then it cuts back to reality which to me clearly shows this is how he is seeing all this in his head whether it's Fleck or Joker in control. This is a tortured traumatized mind we are watching.
Lee Quinzel put him over the edge or opened his mind up at that point however you the viewer want to see it. I thought it was a great writing touch of the duality of mental illness Quinzel's side from privilege and wealth and Fleck's side from poverty and abuse. Quinzel clearly a manipulating character who wanted to bring out Joker for herself or truly believed that was best for Fleck. We knew that when we first figured out she lied about being put in the Asylum they met at in the first place. Damn good acting job. She loved the idea of Joker's F*** the world F*** the system they don't care about us which is a VERY strong message these days. Joker being the extreme choice for that type of change but man with the little actual change happening for people less fortunate I wondered if the writers wanted it this way as a way of saying hey maybe this kind of extreme is where we are heading. Anyway, Quinzel clearly had this plan of being the devil on Fleck's shoulder. She wanted the thrill she wanted to see what Joker could and would do if pushed and convinced enough. The court scenes are where everything shows itself. I do believe this is one of the far-fetched moments of the movie. The amount of leeway the judge gave Fleck/Joker wasn't super convincing. But it was pivotal to see those huge Joker outbursts but also the moments of acceptance and change. You see that break where Fleck and Joker think more as one. Quinzel doesn't like that. I guess I wonder what made him as Joker and Fleck come together and decide the person he wants to portray to the world. Because mentally ill or not you absolutely have the power to shape how people view you. Outside forces play a part clearly (environment, privilege, upbringing, location, etc) but you are the only one always inside your own head. Make the next best choice. This movie weirdly made me feel happy. I was laughing and it was funny, some sad triggering parts for my love, but I know she was happy and also got a lot out of this film as well. The music helped in my opinion as a lot of the songs were positive affirmation type songs. I do wonder what about Gaga's character made Fleck fall for her. Another question I have is what state are these writers in for scripts like this? Do they just disassociate and dive deep into the story adding real-life experiences? Just seems like such a fulfilling feeling whether the movie is well-received or not.
**SPOILERS BELOW**
One other thing I don't think many people thought about is how cool this Joker is to the DC villain universe. The Joker character specifically. This is all a guessing game but I do believe this storyline could be a very cool Joker character origin story. A way to tie all the Jokers (in the DC timeline) together. How this Joker was the first one that started the "movement" with the makeup and the masks people would wear at the end of the first Todd Phillips movie to portray Joker. He started the uprising through violence to "the man" to the rich shitty people who looked down on people like Fleck. He is set up as quite the martyr when he dies in the he did (stabbed by another mentally ill person). I believe this set of 2 Joker movies could've been the start to the origin of the Joker, that it wasn't just one person it was different mentally ill, traumatized, angry people that took it upon themselves to continue what the original Joker started and his persona building off of it. But as we know from other Joker portrayals they use much more extreme measures. Just a thought, but seems like a cool idea to accept every Joker portrayal to be standalone. To be their own.
7.7/10 🤡




The Iron Claw - Dir. Sean Durkin
May 24th, 2024
At my cousin's in Bakersfield for his graduation. Late night my parents and I did not know what to watch. We tried "High Life" at first the space movie with Robert Pattinson but found some things about it from Google that I know my Mom wouldn't have enjoyed so we decided on this. It's a movie we've all been wanting to see but slipped our minds and now its on Max, lovely. Start of the movie I can already tell the wife and husband are NOT on the same page. But the Father is on the brink of something special in wrestling. The beginning of Wrestling as a true entertainment spectacle. I remember watching WWE as a kid thinking it was real but I honestly now think it is an incredibly taxing job mentally and physically. You are playing a character while throwing your body everywhere. And this is where it started very very cool to see.
This old-school Texas family doesn’t want to talk about real issues because it makes them uncomfortable clearly. They don’t believe there is a world where you can’t be tough and live correctly from the parents ' perspective. But the brothers seem to really look out for each other and remind them that their father's opinion and voice aren't everything. I love the old-school feel. I loved the behind-the-scenes aspect we get of the wrestling world. Way tougher than you expect I couldn't imagine.
Very well-paced movie. Classic tale of a father living vicariously through his sons but doesn’t treat them all equally and correctly. What a tragic story all because he believes a family curse. The father won’t take any accountability and the detriment he’s caused his family and his sons just because he wants them to live how he wants to. Self-centered father who has kids to tell them who they have to be.
It’s so tragic and sad but so well written and acted all around. Zac Efron has come into his own all these actors man just wow what a great performance. Efron has been upping his drama game and doing a hell of a job. Just so goddamn sad that the last brother alive is in the most pain and has no brother left to understand and help him as they are the only ones that can. While the other brothers are living together in the afterlife. The 6th brother I have no idea why he wasn’t involved but the most tragedy struck family I’ve ever seen.
The ending is so bittersweet so happy to see Kevin live on the legacy and break that curse with his family and stay strong. To have his boys as "brothers" really helps the pain and the hole left by the passing of his brothers. He even started using a different name to not associate it with his father who clearly had narcissistic issues. Beautiful movie. Beautiful story of a real historic family story.
9.5/10




Dancing With Wolves - Dir. Kevin Costner
May 11th, 2024
So I surprised my Mom for Mother's Day and we always have a couple of movie nights when I'm back visiting home. This was HIGH on the list to watch especially with my parents. I believe they saw this movie in theaters and have always sworn by it. It took a bit but I understand why now. Probably the weirdest start to a damn movie what the heck was he running back and forth for. Seeing him do the dumbest most plot armor main character thing threw me off at first, I was not a fan. Why did his superior shoot himself was he just crazy? Was that just to show what coming to North America did to the weaker links in power?
I like how they had a fantastic cast for the Sioux and the Indians but I don’t like them making the Indians seen as not friendly and whites as always on the defensive. You can tell Costner's character is a good person though actually interested in learning about the natives of the land and not just taking and taking. He’s patient and so is kicking bird. The movie progressively got better and better as it went on. Love all the details each Sioux Indian does to their body and horses before they ride for the Buffalo hunt or into battle.
The horseback riding and Buffalo hunt scene is the most fascinating thing I’ve seen filmed in a while. Definitely top 5 non-CG scenes. It's so amazing how they can ride and shoot like that at the same time. I wish their relationship was how it went in real life. Also, the way he treats animals means something to me. Sad but shows every type of person had good and bad kinds of people just happens that the white man was the most dangerous and violent and brutal of them all.
Also, they had the firepower to overwhelm what the natives had. The Natives are fierce fighters. Europeans are so greedy. What a cruel movie killing these animals. It did erk me when Costner did not tell Wind In His Hair that he loved him too and would always be his friend... I feel like that would've been a nice touch. The beginning threw me off and could’ve been told way better but it got better and better and I thoroughly enjoyed this film. Felt closer to nature and a more natural way of living. The Natives had so many natural remedies and such, things I wish weren’t seen as weird and not aligned with the right religion.
Healing ways and healing properties lost to ignorance and the conquering and greed of their “American frontier” wish we did better. As a film, it sucks you in and keeps you there with a good ending.
8.6/10



Dune: Part 2 - Dir. Denis Villenueve
April 4th, 2024
I'm late but got to watch in 70mm which made up for it. The world-building of this movie, the culture of its people, the different planets and their inhabitants..... Christopher Walken as an emperor? What else could you want???
These movies are spectacles and when you add good writing, directing, and acting to it it’s amazing. I need to try to read the books again because I just remember it being such a tough read compared to most books I've read. I couldn’t really get through it but I want to try again.
The storytelling is incredible. Movies are so inspiring to me I am always looking past the movie into the humanity of these characters and why they think like this to then compare it to real-world shit. Imagination always has a true story hidden inside. Everyone gets lil parts of their ideas from something they’ve heard or seen.
The Fremen are the coolest fighters I’ve seen on screen and the systems in place to adapt to the planets, their suits, and being able to take water from dead bodies for themselves are genius. Also, the weaponry, size of the Harkonnens world and the ship designs everything is beautiful. I know the books are a little old so I’ll give em a break but a white man saying he is Fremen when Zendaya was like you aren’t because he isn’t lol nothing wrong with it. And the white man is supposed to be the “Messiah”. Maybe his character wasn’t supposed to be white maybe that’s just the movie casting (again I need to read the books so forgive me for my ignorance here) just speculating. The aspect of religion is slapped everywhere here. But all it is is the bene gesserit setting up babies around the world as prospects until they got one right. Can’t help but feel a way about religions we have where it was just planted there a story told over and over across thousands of generations. But in this movie they witness it come true.
“The Voice” so powerful and when the old reverend mother called Paul an “abomination” I understood why she was scared of a man holding her power as only women had the power of the “voice” and giving it to one man turned into a holy war. It’s a thought I kept having that he has such power and it went to arguably the best man suitable for it and still turned into an all-out war. They showed the women as planners that held all the cards and information at their fingertips while the fighting took place.
Zendaya was awesome in it honestly she fit that role. Javier is one of my favorite actors and he was great really good all around. Austin Butler's character was…..surprising ahaha but surprisingly disturbing in a good way.
It hurt me when you can tell Chani hates what he’s become but loves Paul and you can tell Paul knew what he had to do but wasn’t the same after drinking the water. I wish he explained to her more like “I literally know everything now and I want to do right by these people and bring them to the promised land and I see everything now the pain, the agony, the horrors. I could never explain it to you but I still love you until my last breath never forget that” I get he said the last thing but I guess I wanted him to give Chani more assurance. I think Chalamet was great with his change of demeanor after taking the water but I think that little extra dialogue to let us know he’s still him just with everything on his plate now would’ve been nice.
But who am I to say that’s the right way either way I loved it. Can’t wait for part 3 and I will try to start the book again.
9/10 🙌


Eyes Wide Shut (1999) - Dir. Stanley Kubrick
March 6th, 2024
As always the surround sound was bumping and I was fully immersed. Holllyyy Moly Kubrick's mind is something to be studied the way he brings a movie together what he thinks about and has ideas for just WOW.
I am not a fan at all of Full Metal Jacket (that being the only other Kubrick movie I've seen so far) but this one was a lot different similar tones as you can tell from the directors and the little quirks they all have. This movie was so sexual and erotic but pro-equality undertones or at least that's how I saw scenes with his wife and a lot of the women in the movie having this clear feeling of power. Showing the unfairness towards women being sexualized and never seeing the possibility that some women like so many men think about sex and love it and embrace their sexual prowess. That they shouldn't be seen as a prize but as the higher being more in tune and in control. It's a very different concept and insane movie that I kind of get which I was surprised I did.
The acting was great even with not being the biggest Cruise fan as he's kind of a nut job lol. But the art in this movie, how it was filmed, the scratchy piano score that was changed as other piano pieces were "too beautiful". The grimy New York scenery fit with that choice. Red being recognized in the same vein as love, sex, and fear even, was a constant color implemented throughout the whole movie. I've wanted to watch this movie for a very looonnggg time knowing nothing about it but the red carpet circle and people with masks ahaha. Its crazy to know there are legit parties out there just like that, that happens all the time I'm guessing. In light of that whole P Diddy situation, these people get too rich which in turn makes them bored and bold to try anything their minds can imagine. When you are that bored and rich who do they care about pleasing besides themselves and their ungodly gross fantasies? When you have no one to tell you no, nothing holding you back from doing anything you've ever thought of I believe that can make a very dangerous person. Its a dark hole that if you are not right within yourself, in your own head, that darkness will consume you so fast.
Sex sells its a sad reality that's only gotten weirder and more complex as the internet progresses and each new generation as more and more info at their fingertips. Sex is ingrained in so many people at a young age and it hooks to the depths of your being. So difficult to get out of or even face at all. In this movie, the couple is married for 9 years with a 7-year-old daughter. Both the wife and husband have these crazy sexual thoughts either through dreams (the wife) or through real-life scenarios. SPOILERS: They end up telling each other everything they dreamed thought and did. I think about that. No person can ever know every single thing that goes on in your head or you theirs. I think there is something special about that. As people would attest, they wouldn't wish their every thought upon the person they love the most. It does not make you a bad person for sometimes thinking bad things, I think it makes you a well-rounded person. Because we program ourselves (brainwash would be a harsher word) but we can convince ourselves we hate this and love this or I believe in this and if I do this I'm shamed forever blah blah blah. Yes there is a morality line there are boundaries but, to be able to let in your very good and very bad thoughts know the difference be able to talk it through, and be at peace knowing you aren't perfect is a skill we should develop. Crazy movie and I realllyyy liked it way more than I thought even immediately after the credits rolled. I HAVE to watch more Kubrick, I really feel like he cared about his craft and had a very interesting thought process.
8.2/10 🙌


The Killer 2023 - November 11th 2023
I was at my SD apartment overlooking Cowles Mountain about to move out actually. I had the surround sound system as usual, can't watch a movie without it. I've been WAITING for this movie for a while it has been in the works for years upon years and I can say it did not disappoint. Love me some Finch. The movie starts and locks you in explaining how small our lives matter in the end and that is okay, the quicker you realize that (the thought that there is most likely an endless void waiting for us) is freeing in a way. All of that within the first 5 minutes of the movie...LOVE IT. To see the thought process of a professional killer and how he explains his next moves or past moves and why it doesn't matter and isn't bad what he's doing is strange. Strange because I don't think he is wrong in many worldly things he is saying about how people are and how the world is. The idea of life being fleeting and fate being a full-on placebo makes me think about accepting many things as they are. Fate doesn't exist and no matter what waits for you at the end of life it's peaceful when you are truly dead, gives me a sense of freedom. A line that stuck with me was "No room for empathy, no room for improvising" That felt inhumane to me it took me away from the character but reminded me who this guy was i mean no matter the life experience he's a trained murderer. In a take and take and take world the easy way out is to just hop on and ride that train into the sunset. The hard part is doing right by people what is humanly right or morally right as subjective as that is. Think about your actions and who they affect because life is beautiful but to be a part of taking away that beauty from someone is indescribable. He is a Killer who shows you what a killer needs to do to make it out alive he stays calm knowing the terrible things happening around him and the terrible things he causes. My favorite scene had to be the 1 on 1 dinner with Tilda Swinton's character. Fantastic. When a movie uses a lot of silence it always has an effect on me that I love. The writing you can tell has been worked on and gone through many times over. I thoroughly enjoyed this movie.
8.7/10 🙌